phone screwed.
back to newgen. like wth.
gotta live with it.
await my new phone.
tsk.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
im trying to reach my goals.
the goals i set for myself.
the goals that seems so wonderful and fufilling.
just thinking of it.
but its impossible to reach it.
i admire at those who achieved it, and laugh at myself.
laughing cause i cant achieve it, at the efforts i put into it.
stupid niiave thinking.
i tried to put in effort in everything i do, but the result is the same.
no matter what i do, its the same.
i try very hard. very very hard.
but its all in vain.
it ell myself what is right.
like what a councilor will tell you.
all the correct answers/ moves you should take.
my mind tells me to go in that direction.
but my heart tells me to go in the other direction.
i feel empty.
not the type that makes you feel like a hole big portion is missing.
but those with little but many holes.
the feeling isnt intense. but its lingers in your heart.
it feels numb. it numbs your whole body, mind.
i try to keep a smile on.
its working. but when im alone.
the feeling comes back.
no one seems to know. im good at acting am i?
the goals i set for myself.
the goals that seems so wonderful and fufilling.
just thinking of it.
but its impossible to reach it.
i admire at those who achieved it, and laugh at myself.
laughing cause i cant achieve it, at the efforts i put into it.
stupid niiave thinking.
i tried to put in effort in everything i do, but the result is the same.
no matter what i do, its the same.
i try very hard. very very hard.
but its all in vain.
it ell myself what is right.
like what a councilor will tell you.
all the correct answers/ moves you should take.
my mind tells me to go in that direction.
but my heart tells me to go in the other direction.
i feel empty.
not the type that makes you feel like a hole big portion is missing.
but those with little but many holes.
the feeling isnt intense. but its lingers in your heart.
it feels numb. it numbs your whole body, mind.
i try to keep a smile on.
its working. but when im alone.
the feeling comes back.
no one seems to know. im good at acting am i?
Friday, June 20, 2008
hellohellos
its been a long time since i last blogged.
longlong time
lots of things happened.
im finding it hard to keep my unusual temper.
its like i suddenly blow up for either no reason or minor reasons.
its so minor that i could have laugh at it if it happened to me merely 2 months back.
and once i blow up, i dont know what to do.
i just dont get it, i dont get why i get angry just like that.
its just isnt logical.
i dont get it.
ive finally got over the emotional downfall(?) during the holidays and now i get this crap.
negative/ contradicting thoughts fill my mind.
i cant stop.
im reading this book called "the nature of jade"
its about a girl with panic disorder and a love for elephants.
she even have a webcam with full view of the elephants from the nearby zoo on her computer.
one day she sees a boy with a redjacket and a baby from the webcam and falls in love with him.
"its like desert girl falling in love with sea boy. althought we cant see each other, we know that there is a connection between the both of us."
the story talks about her dealing with her family, medical, freinds and love problems.
its cool.
bbq was only 15 people of the class.
but was cool. finally got nice bbq food.
thanks annabella and dave. maybe hongming too:]
first day of school. attire check. nevermind about that.
but i got caught for not tucking in my shirt?!
thats kind of weird cause apparently i did.
i was super afriad that she will catch my short skirt which was altered wrongly.
haiyo. i like ms nisrin's story/ debate thingo.
its fun.
im trying to prepare for show and share.
im trying.
i havent done my zuowen, actually half done.
going bugis with dear cuz tommorrow.
havent study or anything
shit. ive been reading the boook the whole day.
i love 10.30am mornings.
its been a long time since i last blogged.
longlong time
lots of things happened.
im finding it hard to keep my unusual temper.
its like i suddenly blow up for either no reason or minor reasons.
its so minor that i could have laugh at it if it happened to me merely 2 months back.
and once i blow up, i dont know what to do.
i just dont get it, i dont get why i get angry just like that.
its just isnt logical.
i dont get it.
ive finally got over the emotional downfall(?) during the holidays and now i get this crap.
negative/ contradicting thoughts fill my mind.
i cant stop.
im reading this book called "the nature of jade"
its about a girl with panic disorder and a love for elephants.
she even have a webcam with full view of the elephants from the nearby zoo on her computer.
one day she sees a boy with a redjacket and a baby from the webcam and falls in love with him.
"its like desert girl falling in love with sea boy. althought we cant see each other, we know that there is a connection between the both of us."
the story talks about her dealing with her family, medical, freinds and love problems.
its cool.
bbq was only 15 people of the class.
but was cool. finally got nice bbq food.
thanks annabella and dave. maybe hongming too:]
first day of school. attire check. nevermind about that.
but i got caught for not tucking in my shirt?!
thats kind of weird cause apparently i did.
i was super afriad that she will catch my short skirt which was altered wrongly.
haiyo. i like ms nisrin's story/ debate thingo.
its fun.
im trying to prepare for show and share.
im trying.
i havent done my zuowen, actually half done.
going bugis with dear cuz tommorrow.
havent study or anything
shit. ive been reading the boook the whole day.
i love 10.30am mornings.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
bbq tommorow.
finally a 2G outing.
cca from 9 to 3 or 4.
shitzx.
i reallyreally hope that jiaolian wont come or i'll be bored to death.
and idk how am i going to wake up tommorrow anyway.
heyhey, i was a good girl who tried to do her homework but my pen all no ink.
haas! i cant do anyhome work with pens rights? muahaha.
monday and tuesday were tv and computer dayz.
papa finally come back today and he's not going back anymore.
idk whether its a yay or boo.
hahas.
i think tommorrow i'll have papa to send me to ecp.
idk how to go and i dont want to waste money on cabbing.
my hair is short.
i mean my fringe.
its kinda weird. boo.
well i hope we can at least set up the fire quickly tommorrow.
last year 1L'o7 bbq was eating beehoon with sataystick and waiting for like 3hours for the fire to start.
i hope it will be sucessful. or eveyone would be going to marine parade to eat. XD
tatas~ have a good day.
finally a 2G outing.
cca from 9 to 3 or 4.
shitzx.
i reallyreally hope that jiaolian wont come or i'll be bored to death.
and idk how am i going to wake up tommorrow anyway.
heyhey, i was a good girl who tried to do her homework but my pen all no ink.
haas! i cant do anyhome work with pens rights? muahaha.
monday and tuesday were tv and computer dayz.
papa finally come back today and he's not going back anymore.
idk whether its a yay or boo.
hahas.
i think tommorrow i'll have papa to send me to ecp.
idk how to go and i dont want to waste money on cabbing.
my hair is short.
i mean my fringe.
its kinda weird. boo.
well i hope we can at least set up the fire quickly tommorrow.
last year 1L'o7 bbq was eating beehoon with sataystick and waiting for like 3hours for the fire to start.
i hope it will be sucessful. or eveyone would be going to marine parade to eat. XD
tatas~ have a good day.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Name 20 people. At the end of the survey, choose 5 people (with blogs) to do it. Do not read the question first, name the people first.-
1. wenmin xd
2. yanyan
3. zhiyi
4. hazelCHEONG
5. shiyin
6. jeelee
7. stephaine
8. weiqi
9. chelseaCHIN
10. chelseaYEO
11. shayting
12. simone
13. sheila
14. weishan
15. elaine
16. spencer
17. donavan
18. keith
19. daniel
20. amirah
How did you met 14? WEISHAN
eastspringprimaryschool. 5B'o5. 6B'o6.
What will you do if you never met 1? WENMIN
i'll lose a secret sharer. and a bestaye.
Will 6 and 17 date? JEELEE&DONAVAN
they dont even know each other.
Describe 3? ZHIYI
never look at things on the outside. she's not what you think she is.
Is 8 attractive? WEIQI
im sure he is to no.7 :]
Describe 7? STEPHAINE
she's weiqi. and whinney, rollercoaster emotions and loud. :]
but i guess she's still quite a good friend.
Do you know any of 12 family members? SIMONE
sure. i know her whole family.
What language does 15 speaks? ELAINE
english, chinese and somehow french. she's a smarty lilgirl who had thridlang.
Who is 9 going out with? chelseaCHIN
seanhui says he is. XD
How old is 16? SPENCER
14 years old. yesterday was his birthday. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SPENCER!
When was the last time you spoke to 13? SHEILA
let me see. hmm.... the last th gang outing. its been long.
Who is 20 favourite singer/band? AMIRAH
i have no idea. O:
Have you ever dated 4? hazelCHEONG
nope. sexy long legs is wanted.
Would you ever date 1? WENMIN
yeah. lets go dating at tm again. XD
Is 19 single? DANIEL
hmm... he have BOYfriends.
What's 10 last name? chelseaYEO
chenxi. chelxiyeozzzzzzz!
Would you ever be in relationship with 11? SHAYTING
O.O im no lesbian.
What is the school of 3? ZHIYI
AHS
Where does 6 lives? JEELEE
Tampines.
What's your favourite thing about 5? SHIYIN
she's ohhso hyper and loud.
Have you ever seen 2 naked? YANYAN
no way. tsk.
Five people to do it:
1. yanyan
2. sheila
3. syifa
4. munmun
5. sophia
wenmin's quizzzzz.
1. wenmin xd
2. yanyan
3. zhiyi
4. hazelCHEONG
5. shiyin
6. jeelee
7. stephaine
8. weiqi
9. chelseaCHIN
10. chelseaYEO
11. shayting
12. simone
13. sheila
14. weishan
15. elaine
16. spencer
17. donavan
18. keith
19. daniel
20. amirah
How did you met 14? WEISHAN
eastspringprimaryschool. 5B'o5. 6B'o6.
What will you do if you never met 1? WENMIN
i'll lose a secret sharer. and a bestaye.
Will 6 and 17 date? JEELEE&DONAVAN
they dont even know each other.
Describe 3? ZHIYI
never look at things on the outside. she's not what you think she is.
Is 8 attractive? WEIQI
im sure he is to no.7 :]
Describe 7? STEPHAINE
she's weiqi. and whinney, rollercoaster emotions and loud. :]
but i guess she's still quite a good friend.
Do you know any of 12 family members? SIMONE
sure. i know her whole family.
What language does 15 speaks? ELAINE
english, chinese and somehow french. she's a smarty lilgirl who had thridlang.
Who is 9 going out with? chelseaCHIN
seanhui says he is. XD
How old is 16? SPENCER
14 years old. yesterday was his birthday. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SPENCER!
When was the last time you spoke to 13? SHEILA
let me see. hmm.... the last th gang outing. its been long.
Who is 20 favourite singer/band? AMIRAH
i have no idea. O:
Have you ever dated 4? hazelCHEONG
nope. sexy long legs is wanted.
Would you ever date 1? WENMIN
yeah. lets go dating at tm again. XD
Is 19 single? DANIEL
hmm... he have BOYfriends.
What's 10 last name? chelseaYEO
chenxi. chelxiyeozzzzzzz!
Would you ever be in relationship with 11? SHAYTING
O.O im no lesbian.
What is the school of 3? ZHIYI
AHS
Where does 6 lives? JEELEE
Tampines.
What's your favourite thing about 5? SHIYIN
she's ohhso hyper and loud.
Have you ever seen 2 naked? YANYAN
no way. tsk.
Five people to do it:
1. yanyan
2. sheila
3. syifa
4. munmun
5. sophia
wenmin's quizzzzz.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Your birthday means that you are an early morning person.
You like water and water sports, and your best colors are blue and gray. You are artistic and love to express yourself in many different ways. While you tend to be more of an introverted person, that does not mean you sit at home. On the contrary, you have the best ideas when it comes to going places and finding things to do. You are very innovative and excel at creativity.
okay.. its soo not true
but yes. i love to express myself in many different ways.
haahs
im talking to random people.
people. i havent talked to in a longlong time
and sometimes, its not good being TV QUEEN cause there's nothing to watch now.
._.
lalala.
CALL ME THE TV QUEEN. tyty:]
You like water and water sports, and your best colors are blue and gray. You are artistic and love to express yourself in many different ways. While you tend to be more of an introverted person, that does not mean you sit at home. On the contrary, you have the best ideas when it comes to going places and finding things to do. You are very innovative and excel at creativity.
okay.. its soo not true
but yes. i love to express myself in many different ways.
haahs
im talking to random people.
people. i havent talked to in a longlong time
and sometimes, its not good being TV QUEEN cause there's nothing to watch now.
._.
lalala.
CALL ME THE TV QUEEN. tyty:]
hellohellos.
slept at 11.30 last night and woke up 12hrs later.
went out with wenmin and isabel (wenmin's friend) on monday.
testerday was tv day.
i finally finished my jian bao.
honey clover episode 15:]
wenmin asked for shows last night.
hence, ive decided to write down all the show sive watched.
wenmin, here's your list:]
wait, i've realised.
i can never write them all out.
since i was primary 1:]
i rmb my first taiwan drama was a MVP 情人 or 流星花园.
first korean drama was 爱上女主播.
therefore, i cant really name them all out.
hmm...okay, for wenmin's sake, i shall write those nicer ones
#1. attack no.1 [jap]
#2. hanayori dango 1&2 [jap]
#3. hana kimi [jap & taiwan]
#4. 1 litre of tears [jap]
#5. sky of love [jap]
#6. ISWAK 1&2 [anime & taiwan]
#7. tokoyo friends [jap]
#8. 恋爱女王 [taiwan]
#9. 天国的树 [korean]
#10. ive got countless korean shows :] about 30+
#11. ive got countless taiwan shows too! xD about at least 25 :]
yay! above mentioned shows are recommended
yay! call me the tv queen.
slept at 11.30 last night and woke up 12hrs later.
went out with wenmin and isabel (wenmin's friend) on monday.
testerday was tv day.
i finally finished my jian bao.
honey clover episode 15:]
wenmin asked for shows last night.
hence, ive decided to write down all the show sive watched.
wenmin, here's your list:]
wait, i've realised.
i can never write them all out.
since i was primary 1:]
i rmb my first taiwan drama was a MVP 情人 or 流星花园.
first korean drama was 爱上女主播.
therefore, i cant really name them all out.
hmm...okay, for wenmin's sake, i shall write those nicer ones
#1. attack no.1 [jap]
#2. hanayori dango 1&2 [jap]
#3. hana kimi [jap & taiwan]
#4. 1 litre of tears [jap]
#5. sky of love [jap]
#6. ISWAK 1&2 [anime & taiwan]
#7. tokoyo friends [jap]
#8. 恋爱女王 [taiwan]
#9. 天国的树 [korean]
#10. ive got countless korean shows :] about 30+
#11. ive got countless taiwan shows too! xD about at least 25 :]
yay! above mentioned shows are recommended
yay! call me the tv queen.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
hellohellos.
pasir ris park on friday with mama and sister.
first time cycling with mama.
haha
went to white sands for dinner and saw ms ng there.
long timeno see.
i guess since last year's teacher's day.
saturday was stoning at home and dinner with mum's friend at home.
o.o
it was a o.o
but at least i had good food once in awhile during such dinners :]
today was tution till 3.
woke up at 10.30 when tution starts at 11.
haha me.
new show.
honey and clover anime.
angeline's watching the taiwan version which i detest cause its on youtube my dear.
youtube's a tsk.
and hana kimi jap version on tv.
56 every saturday:]
according to dave: im sianzz
(bored= nothing to do
sianzz= bored by the thing you are doing)
yesyes. by the shows.
but ive got nothing to do.
and dont want to do hw.
plszxzx. its the hols.
and just when im typing the word "hw", mama asks "are you doing any hw?"
o.o
im having random conversations
yay.
pasir ris park on friday with mama and sister.
first time cycling with mama.
haha
went to white sands for dinner and saw ms ng there.
long timeno see.
i guess since last year's teacher's day.
saturday was stoning at home and dinner with mum's friend at home.
o.o
it was a o.o
but at least i had good food once in awhile during such dinners :]
today was tution till 3.
woke up at 10.30 when tution starts at 11.
haha me.
new show.
honey and clover anime.
angeline's watching the taiwan version which i detest cause its on youtube my dear.
youtube's a tsk.
and hana kimi jap version on tv.
56 every saturday:]
according to dave: im sianzz
(bored= nothing to do
sianzz= bored by the thing you are doing)
yesyes. by the shows.
but ive got nothing to do.
and dont want to do hw.
plszxzx. its the hols.
and just when im typing the word "hw", mama asks "are you doing any hw?"
o.o
im having random conversations
yay.
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